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| Tuesday, September 30, 2008 |
| Hoping that he would talk to me. |
-- i feel like a crap.. like any minute i'll go insane.
and i don't know if this "thing" that i'm feeling all this time is right..
i need someone to help me.. -- i feel like i'm gonna burst out.
It's already been 3 days since the last time Corn and I texted. and the last convo was a funny joke about a very highly sophisticated cockroach, who wished that if she would be killed.. she would be killed by squishing her with a Havaianas slipper instead of a magazine.. she even said that "Only Havaianas touches my skin".. I laugh my heart out at the joke and texted him bout it.. these are my text :
Me: "Mlanding ipis yan.."
I never thought that he would reply back.. but he did. and these were the last text..
Corn: "Myaman un.hehe."
Up'till now i still haven't delete the text message.. i don't know why. Everytime there is a up coming message in my phone, i still get the hopes that its his text message. I know it is stupid and i know its wrong to hope..i even dared to wish that He and his girlfriend would break up..( and i really feel so evil ) But i can't help it.. i've been trying to supress this feeling but the more i think about it, the more i fall for him.. (STUPID GIRL!)
but i really feel so confused this time.. -- the only thing that i can do is just look at him from a far..
hoping that he would turn back and look at me.. eventhough if it's just a glimps..
i even feel a little bit paranoid, coz i'm having toughts that i think he's avoiding me.. -- <\3 but i hope not.. i just wish that one day when he comes back , we would bring back the old things that we always did.. i just hope someday..
a little bit in pain.
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| Tuesday, September 23, 2008 |
| best group ever. |
finally i'm back.. i really miss doing this writing stuff. so i think this time its gonna be long.
Today,i'm dedicate this journal to my NCM 104 group mates..
Norzagaray- ER duty (sept.7-10,08)
-so again, we are back at Norza.. but this time we are placed in the ER ward. And yeah,we live in the dorm again for 3 days and 3 nights. Ayn and Kuya Ichan joined us this time..like they say the more the merrier..haha. But the reason why they wanted to is because this is gonna be the last time they will join in our group. Yeah. Ayn,Kuya Ichan and Tin will no longer be in our group..
we had a lot of fun this time at Norza.. We even celebrate Rhein's birthday.
it was unexpected actually, we planed to surprise him. Cakes, donuts and ice cream.. this are the stuffs we served.. plus the ehem..alcohol. hahaha.. We all get drunk.. So the next day we all had headaches.. good thing our clinical instructor didn't notice it.. haha.
Batangas Regional- Ortho and CD ward (sept.14-21,08)
-the second week before we all separate.
...This is the most funniest duty of all. We all did have special time with each other. Like the moments we all ride in the same van (only our group).. The memorable dorm.. the outer house looks good, but when you get inside you'll be surprise on what the rooms look like.. its dusty, congested..it is so small, you feel like your in a prison.. the room is hot, even though there is an aircon it feel like your in a sauna bath. The bathroom..its a little dirty..plus the water runs out. So you have to take a bath early..
we didn't have a duty on the 3rd day.. our instructor just told us the night before that we will just have our duty at wednesday..and assigned us just to make a research about dengue. So that night we tried to escape at the dorm and went swimming. At first, we planned to went to the beach. but its already night, and kinda out of money (transportation is a bit expensive..plus we don't have food) so we made another plan. First we will go at SM batangas, ask somebody there if they know any close place where there is a resort. Then the next plan: How to escape without being caught.. We only bring 1 extra clothes,shampoo and soap..and some canned goods. Put it a bag..and for a decoy.. we put the bag inside a plastic.. So we pretended that we're just throwing out trash. HAHAHA..
We arrive in front of SM mall.. Ask some good'ol tricycle drivers if they know a near by resort.. and they took us at GREEN CORAL resort! The whole town was out of electrical power..meaning Black out. The resort is even empty.. there are no other customers except for us.. SO take off the shirt!!! -- all us girls are just wearing bra's!.... lucky for Rhein and Deo to seeing us.. We also did some truth (no dare) game..and i was force to spill the beans that i had a crush on "Corn"..they we're all surprise We met some other people..(workers from Worlds of Fun) Then at 5am that morning we all went back to the dorm.. asleep till noon.
Duty with sir wilfred was ok.. I was the most toxic at the group.. coz my patient was on NGT and was on Ambu bag.. and it was my first time to perform Tube feeding. And it was cool. That day, i also get to spend some moments with Corn.. I was getting hungry, i ask Kristel if she could come with me to buy some food at the canteen.. but then Corn butt out and ask were we are going.. Kristel ask him if he already eat and he said no.. Smirking (with some evil smile on her face), Kristel ask him to accompany me instead.. but I knew that time that Corn still haven't ate.. I was a bit shy of him that time..but i still tried to keep my cool. So after that incident, all the people who know that i had a crush on Corn was making fun of me. ---they even joked Corn that we should eat dinner together.. but Corn STILL didn't get the hidden message..--what a slow guy.. *sigh*
there was even an time when AGAIN Kristel busted me that Corn was texting me.. I was embarrass the whole time..-- it even turn my face red. I was only replying to his message that tomorrow our duty will start at 9am.. He replied.. he said "ok thanks" and "nyt nyt.." Cath, Val, Kristel and i think Rhein too read the text.. (again Tuksuhan na naman..) Telling me.. "Nice Ten! nag-go-good night pa! dalaga ka na!!" --i really wanna hide my self in the dark..if only i didn't react so guity..
The next and the most memorable moment with Corn was the time were Tin took a photo of us.. He was REALLY insensitive! He didn't know that it was only a plan Val, Rhein, Cath, Deo, Tel and Tin made..Val change seats with me..making me sit beside him. I was trying to hold my smile the whole time..while eyeing at them..--the sole suspects.
That didn't even end there.. at the dorm while Corn was still waiting for their transport.. I think Cath and Val called him and ask to have pictures with him.. its his last day of becoming our group mate. At first it was a group pic, then comes a solo with him.. When it was my turn, i feel that there "is" something already..like he already feel that i like him. *gulp* But still i keep on pretending.. and i tried to act naturally. I tried to keep a "we are friends" atmosphere while i was next beside him..just waiting for the camera phone to click. But then i was surprise..i really didn't expect it.. He hugged me! I feel like my soul has been warped..better yet, i feel like i was in cloud nine. Of all the people who are taking pics with him..i was the only one who he hugged in the picture.. --again there was hiyawan na naman.. But then no cameras this time.. Corn hugged me for the last time. <3
Then after Corn left the room Tin quickly opened her bluetooth (mine too..) and send the picture. They were all happy for me.. specially Val. She was the most Kilig of all.. Promise i will never ever forget this incident at all..
Saturday..before the break of dawn. We went to the so called "Bukal"..it came to our surprise that its only a small pipe tubing that connects to the underground.. but the water really came from the mountains.. we planned to take a bath in there but ended up at the Green Coral resort.. another night swimming!
next day.. still exhausted from the night swimming and all of them have hang-overs.. except me and val.. we bid bye bye to the dorm.. the city and Tin.. hope this memory will last forever...
falling in love..
~~ten-chan =^.^=
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| Saturday, September 6, 2008 |
| busiest week of my life.. |
so how was my week? read the title again.
i've studied for like 6 days straight.. done late hours of sleep.. and the moment of doom..
--my examination. Thursdays kinda..well tiring. But unlike Friday..not only i was physically tired..but also mentally and emotionally.
why i've said that?..ok so here are "My'' reasons:
1. I was tired from the exam(mind and body)..
2. I was late for the Boys like Girls concert..and didn't even got to hear them sing..--which sucks.
3. I'm broke. yeah..spend all my money for food,transportation,and CD.
4. So i've bought the CD.. but didn't get a chance to get it signed.. --sucks 2x's
and lastly..
5. I didn't get to meet,shake hands,hug or kiss Paul on that day! --which really sucks 3x's!
to make up from all the time that was lost.. i had to make sure that i get to see them up close..
so after the signing..kim and i run to the exit door (same as the click five incident). I turn my insane fangirl mode and moshed to the crowed.. no matter what happen.. body to body..skin to skin..i've got to make sure that i get up close! but then..*crack*.. i was like OMG..the CD! i was hugging it the whole time while moshing.. then the Band passed..i rise my cam phone,making random snap shots.then it ended.
kim and i decide to eat..so i checked my coin purse if i still had enough money to feed us. Stretching it out up to the last penny,we did..a 39'ers meal..(i'm a genius! hehe..) i check the cd..and it did have a crack on it.. (remembrance from the crowd incident..and for being my insane self that time)
even though i didn't get to see them up close..nor here them.. its still worth it. i just hope they'll come back..
by the way here the snap shots i got from that time.. the whole crowd thingy..
 he's the bassist i think.. he looks like Ben.   
we are just insane.. LOL.
sayonara for now!
~~ tenchan
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| posted by melon Soda @ 7:25 PM |
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| Wednesday, September 3, 2008 |
| go for the GOLD!.. |
thank God i didn't over slept this time!.. thanks to mom..she woke me up.
i even set my alarm clock.. but didn't help.
last night i've watched some Korean soap-opera with Kim..--yeah.. procrastinated again.
but..i've review some notes before going to sleep.. i think drinking ice tea's kinda effective..it keeps you awake for few hours..
so today is the day. first day of exam,and i feel kinda anxious actually. but its ok,it just proves that i'm still alive..lol. .. i just remember when i was still in elementary my mom uses to make us study a week before the exams.. no tv..no cartoons..no play time..thats why i use to sneak just to watch a bit on tv..*sigh* now i feel nostalgic..
oh yeah! wish me luck for today..and i hope i didn't fall as sleep while taking the exams..
so *gan-batte!
 sleepy..i feel sleepy..
~~tenchan =^.^=
*means do your best or good luck in japanese
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| About Me |
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Name: Melon Soda/Ten-chan
Age: ageless
Location: mostly just inside my room..
About Me: just a superficial person..that's it.
Likes:manga, music, sketching, baking stuffs, eating sweets, water, milk, stuff animals,
my dog, colorful objects, and one particular guy..hehe..
Hates:Waking up early, Hot weather, Mayonnaise and Ketchup, and Annoying people..(i'll just stop here coz i'm running out of ideas)
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